Stressin Out

WeHeartIt Needs Money, I don't have any :(

Trying so hard not to but the stress keeps butting in to my only so strong head. Things on my mind:


+blog isn't pretty or interesting enough (tell me what you like and want to see more of!)
+moving in 27 days
+money money money 
+why previous employers are hiding from/avoiding me
+my mom's constant sadness about one thing or another: lack of help, grandparents steady downhill health marathon, kids always fighting, constant questions about what I'm doing to do in Portland.. etc
+not being able to keep a smile on or keep a cross tone from escaping my lips when talking to my lil brother and sister
+not talking to my at college sister because she's mad at me
+no responses to a craigslist ad
+sleep addiction?


I'm sure there is more but I think that's enough to list for now. Today, even though I'm pretty much flat broke I went to lunch with O from the office. I miss being able to talk to him and C the wonder couple with the most amazing baby EVER! No joke, seriously the cutest thing. I needed lunch because most of today feels like a knock down drag out fight where pessimism is kicking the crap out of positivity. 


I need out of this house. Bad. I need out of this state... bad. I need happy positive situations... REALLY BAD.


Tell me about something positive in your life. I need some happy friends. 

And then I calm down

I have a hard time keeping a positive attitude sometimes but then I go perusing blogs and I find a simple happiness again. Earlier today my heart swelled with joy when I saw that I have not one but THREE known followers AND you dear readers (that I didn't even know existed besides my faithful Portland friend B) are not only reading and stopping by but also commenting!!!
I wanted to skip around my work with joy. Alas that probably would have been a bad idea because then I might have had to explain why I was so happy which then would lead to explaining why I was on my own blog instead of doing work...

but I digress...

After lunch I came back in a funk again and so I took a second after answering emails to stop by Decor8. More specifically I paused more than briefly on this post. Definitely was a good idea because I came upon this picture:

I instantaneously feel in love with the pillow in the girl's left left hand. Oh sigh. So then I followed the links on said blog post and found a gorgeous collection by Anne Hubert. I suggest you take a look if you like cute things, and I'm pretty sure you do.


In closing, I am less frustrated and stressed now and I'm ready to get back to work (kind of) and I appreciate you more than you know!

<3 C