Trying so hard not to but the stress keeps butting in to my only so strong head. Things on my mind:
+blog isn't pretty or interesting enough (tell me what you like and want to see more of!)
+moving in 27 days
+money money money
+why previous employers are hiding from/avoiding me
+my mom's constant sadness about one thing or another: lack of help, grandparents steady downhill health marathon, kids always fighting, constant questions about what I'm doing to do in Portland.. etc
+not being able to keep a smile on or keep a cross tone from escaping my lips when talking to my lil brother and sister
+not talking to my at college sister because she's mad at me
+no responses to a craigslist ad
+sleep addiction?
I'm sure there is more but I think that's enough to list for now. Today, even though I'm pretty much flat broke I went to lunch with O from the office. I miss being able to talk to him and C the wonder couple with the most amazing baby EVER! No joke, seriously the cutest thing. I needed lunch because most of today feels like a knock down drag out fight where pessimism is kicking the crap out of positivity.
I need out of this house. Bad. I need out of this state... bad. I need happy positive situations... REALLY BAD.
Tell me about something positive in your life. I need some happy friends.
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