I'm in LOVE

New Absolute Favorite Show... Secret Diary of a Call Girl.
Awesomely wicked and so british and her bedroom is GOOORGEOUS.
Don't believe me? Take a look as pixelated picture:

lucky ladies, I want to see the set, and sneak it all home with my under my shirt!

I know it's not the best quality but you can see there are curtains framing her wonderful, lush, gem tone bed. I'm in love. Not just with the set, but with Hannah and the show as a whole.

Accent + pretty woman + cute set + taboo topic = I'm a sucker

And now it's time for sweet pretty dreams.

quick update

so clever

I didn't move to Portland, I decided instead to move in with some friends of mine in Chula Vista instead. (*Some) Snobs from up north are asking me what's in "Chula Juana" (because of the very close proximity to TJ or Tijuana. My answer: amazing friends that offered me their guest room for a span of time (3 months) in exchange for one babysitting day a week.
Can I just say 1) awesome deal 2) their baby is the cutest lil' man EVER! I'm in hearts with him and I never go this gaga over a baby. So just in case you were wondering what's going on with that aspect of my life, there it is. I am not in Portland as I had first thought, I am instead exploring a new section of this huge county of San Diego. Adventures galore for sure!
I started my move Saturday mid morning by loading up my car with the first batch of stuff. Let me just tell you, there was no way I was going to be able to get all of my stuff in my car to move to Portland. Good to know now!
Arrived at new house, Mrs. C was putting a new knob on the door, one with a super special lock. In doing this she locked me in my own room. Hilarious. That was just the beginning. I've been here a few days now and I love, love, love it. I don't doubt my decision one bit.

I'll share more real soon but for now I'm super sleepy.

Much love to you and a lot of zzzzzzzz's for me.

oh yes, ps I bought my lil Diana Mini and now just need to get some film. I also need to get a LOT more film for my Instax Mini and THEN, THEN my next camera mission is the leather SX-70.

Almost at the end of the month of truths

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Day 20: My views on drugs and alcohol...
Oh my goodness, such a good thing I didn't answer this while straight edge. I still don't like the idea of drugs and alcohol for myself but I'm definitely not as intense about it. I drink every once in a while. I'll sip on some champagne or a beer (that's very rare) and even more rarely I'll get a vodka drink. I always drive when I go out so I don't really get drinks at bars. Let's be real, I don't really go to bars often at all. Basically my views are: do as you wish I'm just not going to participate much at all, and if it's drugs not at all.


Day 21: My best friend gets in an accident and we got in a fight before it happened...
I would cry. A lot. I would cry and hope that she made it through. There's no specification of how bad the crash or injuries are but I'm assuming that this question is hinting that the outcome is pretty bleak. I would apologize profusely or if it was something I got mad at her about I would say it didn't matter then. 


Day 22: Something I wish I hadn't done in my life...
I don't like to go back and regret things. If find it pretty useless. When people regret they often like to forget about what happened and then they end up repeating the actions or doing similar actions in the future. I just stopped myself from repeating a common mistake I make. The good thing is I'm learning from everything that I've done.


Day 23: Something I wish I had done in my life...
Taken more art classes in high school and college. Also, I wish I had gone on my year trip to Spain. Thinking about it thoroughly I can see that I probably would have gone through my anxiety and depression there that happened in Portland but when I pretend that none of that would have happened I wish I had gone. But like I said before, you learn from everything you do and don't do, so here's to the future.


Day 24: 
Dear future husband,


This will be our song.
Such Great Heights - The Postal Service


Love,
Your Future Wife


Day 25: The reason I believe I am still alive today.
I find this one to be a little strange. I don't think I've been in any life threatening situations so I believe I am still alive today because I am waaaay too cautious and I have great parents.


Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

I want this so bad it hurts

Is there anything more perfect?

I've lost sight of my photo passion recently. Not because I don't like it or because I'm feeling self conscious but because I've been really, really busy in the middle of days. True to my form though I bust out pictures on my instant cameras here and there. I just need another shopping justification but in the last two days I have already spent way too much money and I have bills to pay coming up. Isn't that always the case. I can't wait until I get my little paws on this gorgeous thing though. Soon. Soon Miss C will have her camera and life again will be complete. Well, until I have another shopping time where I can afford to get an Holga 120. 

Until then I'll just dream.

Oh goodness I got behind!

Day 19

Day 13- A band or artist that got me through tough days...
This is so hard. Honestly I listen to so much music that there isn't one band that has gotten me through hard times. So I'll write a letter to all.


Dear bands dear to my heart,
I love love love you. Like you've heard from gushing fans who run into you at inopportune times I love your work and you've made a huge impact on my life. Seriously. I appreciate that you are just humans however and most likely unless we have friends in common I'm going to leave you alone and just watch from the venue floor and leave and think of how wonderful a performance the show was. If you purposely make yourself accessible to say hi then I might depending on if I'm feeling super shy that day or not.
In closing, I love love love your work.
I've probably thought about sleeping with you because you're magical. Truth is I probably won't because sleeping with or even dating touring band guys (or girls) is a lot of heart ache waiting to happen. So I'll just play pretend.
I'm done being creepy.
Love, 
C


Day 14-A hero that has let me down
Oh man, I KNOW I have one of these. A person I became so disappointed in when they fell from grace. I can't remember any at the moment which is quite unfortunate.


Dear possible heros,
I understand that you are human and that sometimes even you make mistakes. Most are forgivable. If you're sleeping with someone under 18 and you are over 20 I'm not excusing it. If you molest or rape I cannot mentally forgive or forget. If you end up in rehab or get caught with your panties off I'll get over it. We all have fashion mishaps, we all get bad haircuts and we all say things we don't always mean. 
So heroes, please keep doing great things to make me look up to you and I'll try to keep you off a pedestal made of unreasonable expectations.
Love,
C


Day 15- Something (or someone) I couldn't live without
Let's be realistic here, there are very few things that we need to physically survive. Water, food and enough mobility to find shelter or make it in some way. I would say that a hard thing for me to live without if I had to would be showers. Or blankets. BLANKETS! I can't sleep without being somewhat covered. Summer is hard on me most of the time because it's hot and I have to sleep in shorts and a light shirt at the least AND have a semi heavy blanket on me, a sheet doesn't cut it. I know it seems a little strange but a blanket is something I would have a VERY hard time functioning without.


Day 16- Something/someone I COULD live without
There are so many things or someones that I could live without. I could live without people who have a diva attitude, who automatically think they are better than me because of how long they have been somewhere or their position in something. I am usually pretty easy to get along with but when I see the possibility of a diva attitude I instantly get a bit colder. I don't play nice with people like that. 


Day 17 - A book I've read that changed my views on something:
Ishmael. 100% this book is one I reread every couple of years. It made me continue questioning the idea of faith and Christianity. It made me think more about why I ate meat (when I did) and it just made me think about the world and how it functions on a totally different level. I love this book SO MUCH! I think some people have a hard time with the talking gorilla aspect of it but I don't because since I've been little I've always had an overactive imagination, one that has a hard time labeling just about anything as impossible. The book doesn't say anything about becoming a vegetarian, it was just the piece of sand that turned into that pearl for me. 


Day 18- My views on gay marriage
All for it and then some! I don't like shotgun weddings for any couple and I really don't like how high the divorce rate is but if two people (man/man, woman/woman, woman/man) love each other and want to celebrate their love in a way that the straights have been doing for centuries then GO FOR IT! Who am I to say someone can't? No I don't think it ruins the idea of marriage. You know what does ruin the idea of marriage? I'll tell you... people getting married after knowing each other for a few months and then getting divorced a year later because it just wasn't what they thought it was going to be. Celebrities that jump from one person to another. People that get divorced instead of really trying to make a marriage and a promise work. Don't get me wrong, I'm not against divorce completely. The option definitely needs to be there to keep people safe. Sometimes people really do change directions in what they want and being together just doesn't make sense anymore. Sometimes a dad and a mom are definitely better off in separate houses for the kids' sake. But there are a lot of divorces that happen because people think love and marriage is suppose to be easy and come naturally. Making a relationship work is not easy, even if it's really strong. So yes, let people marry!


Day 19 - What do I think of religion? What do I think of politics?
Mind controlling bullshit is what I think it's come to be mostly. Yes I think there are positive aspects of religion and yes I think some people are living it right but for the most part it's causing a lot of problems and has ALWAYS ended in masses dead. When is everyone going to realize that there are some very basic principles in most if not all religions? Aren't we suppose to let the "creator" judge? Why are we doing suicide bombings or stoning people to death or ostracizing people for who they love? Why? Is that putting sunshine and roses in anybody's life or heart? No. You know what does? Compassion and love and helpful deeds. 
And then there is politics. I want to spit on the idea of modern day politics and how our country is being run to the ground by people that are SO STUCK in the common way of doing things and so scared of letting go of the title  of "World Power" that they dig the ditch deeper. I thought we were suppose to be a smart country, I thought we were suppose to have a lot of different ideas that didn't bend to bribes. I thought politicians were suppose to be held liable for what they say they are going to do? What happened to that? Instead they decide the main issues for every voting time and we forget about other issues that may very well be more important. Liberal, Conservative, Communist, Socialist, Fascist...the lines are SO blurred and people keep calling whatever they don't consider themselves to be monsters. Honestly it doesn't seem like any group has gotten it perfect yet now have they? 


And so ends another episode of 30 days of truths. Do come back again!






Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

so hot when she burns her tongue

Just watched Jennifer's Body for the second time. I love love love it. So hilarious, creepy but not scary. True to Diablo Cody form there are a bunch of strange but funny one liners. My favorites are "I'll play hello titty with the bar tender..." (on how Jennifer's going to get drinks from the bartender) and "you're jello, you're lime green jello and you can't even admit it to yourself" (on Needy's boyfriend being jealous). Definitely more a funny movie than a scary one but I love it just the same. Adam Brody plays a screwed up musician... Megan Fox plays the hot demonic chick and my all time favorite Amanda Seyfried plays Needy, the best friend. I watched this movie a while back, before I saw Chloe and didn't quite appreciate Amanda's acting talent. Seriously, she goes from J's Body to Chloe to Mama Mia to Dear John and plays all parts (or I assume all parts, I've never seen Mama Mia) really well. Blows my mind.

In other news I've been really irregular in posting lately and all I can say is getting ready to move is getting the best of my time and concentration. And now sleep is my number one. This week I WILL find time to work on more of the 30 truths as well as write a post on this crazy weekend I just had. It was filled with awesome to the brim.

Good night moon.

Day 12 of truths

My piggy banks never lasted long

Day 12: Something I never get complimented on...

How good I am with money. I'm admittedly not good with money at all which would definitely be why my skills don't get complimented. Other than that I'm a pretty lucky girl. I have been complimented on so many positive things that I can't think of a characteristic that I think I have that someone hasn't complimented me on. I need to remember that for the bad days when I think I'm not good at anything.




Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself