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Day 13- A band or artist that got me through tough days...
This is so hard. Honestly I listen to so much music that there isn't one band that has gotten me through hard times. So I'll write a letter to all.


Dear bands dear to my heart,
I love love love you. Like you've heard from gushing fans who run into you at inopportune times I love your work and you've made a huge impact on my life. Seriously. I appreciate that you are just humans however and most likely unless we have friends in common I'm going to leave you alone and just watch from the venue floor and leave and think of how wonderful a performance the show was. If you purposely make yourself accessible to say hi then I might depending on if I'm feeling super shy that day or not.
In closing, I love love love your work.
I've probably thought about sleeping with you because you're magical. Truth is I probably won't because sleeping with or even dating touring band guys (or girls) is a lot of heart ache waiting to happen. So I'll just play pretend.
I'm done being creepy.
Love, 
C


Day 14-A hero that has let me down
Oh man, I KNOW I have one of these. A person I became so disappointed in when they fell from grace. I can't remember any at the moment which is quite unfortunate.


Dear possible heros,
I understand that you are human and that sometimes even you make mistakes. Most are forgivable. If you're sleeping with someone under 18 and you are over 20 I'm not excusing it. If you molest or rape I cannot mentally forgive or forget. If you end up in rehab or get caught with your panties off I'll get over it. We all have fashion mishaps, we all get bad haircuts and we all say things we don't always mean. 
So heroes, please keep doing great things to make me look up to you and I'll try to keep you off a pedestal made of unreasonable expectations.
Love,
C


Day 15- Something (or someone) I couldn't live without
Let's be realistic here, there are very few things that we need to physically survive. Water, food and enough mobility to find shelter or make it in some way. I would say that a hard thing for me to live without if I had to would be showers. Or blankets. BLANKETS! I can't sleep without being somewhat covered. Summer is hard on me most of the time because it's hot and I have to sleep in shorts and a light shirt at the least AND have a semi heavy blanket on me, a sheet doesn't cut it. I know it seems a little strange but a blanket is something I would have a VERY hard time functioning without.


Day 16- Something/someone I COULD live without
There are so many things or someones that I could live without. I could live without people who have a diva attitude, who automatically think they are better than me because of how long they have been somewhere or their position in something. I am usually pretty easy to get along with but when I see the possibility of a diva attitude I instantly get a bit colder. I don't play nice with people like that. 


Day 17 - A book I've read that changed my views on something:
Ishmael. 100% this book is one I reread every couple of years. It made me continue questioning the idea of faith and Christianity. It made me think more about why I ate meat (when I did) and it just made me think about the world and how it functions on a totally different level. I love this book SO MUCH! I think some people have a hard time with the talking gorilla aspect of it but I don't because since I've been little I've always had an overactive imagination, one that has a hard time labeling just about anything as impossible. The book doesn't say anything about becoming a vegetarian, it was just the piece of sand that turned into that pearl for me. 


Day 18- My views on gay marriage
All for it and then some! I don't like shotgun weddings for any couple and I really don't like how high the divorce rate is but if two people (man/man, woman/woman, woman/man) love each other and want to celebrate their love in a way that the straights have been doing for centuries then GO FOR IT! Who am I to say someone can't? No I don't think it ruins the idea of marriage. You know what does ruin the idea of marriage? I'll tell you... people getting married after knowing each other for a few months and then getting divorced a year later because it just wasn't what they thought it was going to be. Celebrities that jump from one person to another. People that get divorced instead of really trying to make a marriage and a promise work. Don't get me wrong, I'm not against divorce completely. The option definitely needs to be there to keep people safe. Sometimes people really do change directions in what they want and being together just doesn't make sense anymore. Sometimes a dad and a mom are definitely better off in separate houses for the kids' sake. But there are a lot of divorces that happen because people think love and marriage is suppose to be easy and come naturally. Making a relationship work is not easy, even if it's really strong. So yes, let people marry!


Day 19 - What do I think of religion? What do I think of politics?
Mind controlling bullshit is what I think it's come to be mostly. Yes I think there are positive aspects of religion and yes I think some people are living it right but for the most part it's causing a lot of problems and has ALWAYS ended in masses dead. When is everyone going to realize that there are some very basic principles in most if not all religions? Aren't we suppose to let the "creator" judge? Why are we doing suicide bombings or stoning people to death or ostracizing people for who they love? Why? Is that putting sunshine and roses in anybody's life or heart? No. You know what does? Compassion and love and helpful deeds. 
And then there is politics. I want to spit on the idea of modern day politics and how our country is being run to the ground by people that are SO STUCK in the common way of doing things and so scared of letting go of the title  of "World Power" that they dig the ditch deeper. I thought we were suppose to be a smart country, I thought we were suppose to have a lot of different ideas that didn't bend to bribes. I thought politicians were suppose to be held liable for what they say they are going to do? What happened to that? Instead they decide the main issues for every voting time and we forget about other issues that may very well be more important. Liberal, Conservative, Communist, Socialist, Fascist...the lines are SO blurred and people keep calling whatever they don't consider themselves to be monsters. Honestly it doesn't seem like any group has gotten it perfect yet now have they? 


And so ends another episode of 30 days of truths. Do come back again!






Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself