For the month of October I am going to be doing 30 truths. Originally found here. I'm going to group them sometimes if I get behind. Best part, I'm already behind so here are 1-4.
Day 01: Something I hate about myself.
Here it goes... I'll let it out. I'm wishy washy. I go back and forth on things and big decisions and such. I'm getting better slowly but surely but I definitely hate or strongly dislike that part of me. I make lists in my head and I make a decision and then I feel good about it but then I get scared and go back on it. It's stopped me from doing a lot of things that I might have enjoyed.
Day 02: I love my hair. Yes, that is quite vain but I do. I love being a redhead/strawberry blonde. I think my hair color has had a huge impact on my personality. Ever since I can remember people have told me how pretty my hair is. For a while it was just older people which made me doubt the compliments truth considering people my age just picked on me but very recently I've fully and completely embraced my hair color and I love it very much. Being a redhead definitely sets you apart whether you like it or not. Luckily I not only got the ginger mutation but I also received my dad's vanity genes. I love good attention. I sometimes blush or get flustered but I love it none the less. I often worry about what is going to happen when I go gray. I'm definitely scared for that day because I can not imagine what life would be if I weren't a redhead. I get a little anxious just thinking about it.
Day 03: Something I have to forgive myself for... gosh, that's a hard one. Maybe not being able to fix my mom's life for her. Or not always being perfect. I need to say "it's okay" to myself when I mess up so I can learn from it instead of feel ashamed and mortified. Sometimes I feel like it's my job to fix anything and everything. I feel like I can take on the whole world's problems if I just give them enough thought and space in my mind. Trouble is I start panicking and not only do problems stay unsolved, I end up needing a lot of time to recoop. I also need to forgive myself for upsetting my parents from time to time and being a disappointment. I can't always be what they want. I can only be what makes me happy.
Day 04: I have to forgive my ex for the way he up and left, for the way he pussied out of saying goodbye because he wasn't man enough. I have to forgive his weakness so I can believe that the next person won't do the same thing. I have to forgive him his weaknesses so I don't keep wondering if just maybe I wasn't enough.
I have to forgive a coworker of her horrible attitude and spiteful ways and I have to stop fueling the fire by talking more smack behind her back. I just get really fired up when people think that I am someone to be bullied or even worse pushed to the side. Possibly because I question my worth and my strength so much that when someone else does I have to prove to them I'm fierce and worth it so I can believe it myself. Oh goodness I'm so sappy. That's what I get for doing these after watching emotional episodes of Desperate Housewives...
Here's what to expect over the next 30 days. Like I said before, I may clump some of them together... life is busy and sometimes at night I just want to sleep. :) Doesn't mean I don't love and appreciate every single one of my 7 readers! I seriously appreciate the eff out of you guys. Thank you for taking time out of your day to see a little part of my world.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
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